monday, february 24, 2014.

I dont know if its just, but i dread going to school on mondays, specially being a senior in high school. where everyone knows about everyone, secretly. i love my high school, dont get me wrong. but my experince today made me feel as if i were a piece of shit. let me start of by saying that im really insecure about my body (a whole knew blog talking about it) but today i wore a read cute round collar shirt. it was tight, tigher clothes that i usally wear. and of course my boobs where all out there, not in an exposed way at all, you couldnt see any clevage, but they where just out there. i got out of my car in the morning first comment from a dear friend "your shirt is cute, OMG those boobs!!!" "wow okay, i didnt want that compliment"- i told myself. went about my day, 4th period goverment came around, the bell was about to ring in 2 minutes, this boy leans into me and tries to hug me, one harm through my brest,with tha arm, his hand scratching one of my boobs on purpose. i imedialty said "stop, stop," and took my backpack was greatful that the bell had rung; i ran out of that classroom. who does that? touch someones boobs? is it because he was young and imature? without  left the class i wanted to cry, i wanted to dissapear. that was my body he was touching without permission. AND THAT WASN THE FIRST TIME HE hAD DONE THAT!!! and it wasnt on accident either. but who could i tell, who would believe me? no one, they would probably take his side and say that I WAS THE ONE THAT PROVOCATED IT. but i swear it wasnt. and to make matters worse, i bumpted into the one guy at the school who had seem my breast, and only that, and kissed all over them when i didnt want him too. of course he said hi in a mismirky way. god it made me feel even worse about myself. i am just a sex object to these boys, and its really taking a tool in my life. what a day in the life as a senior. FUCK.